I posted this as a note on my facebook page a while back, just wanted to have it up here on the blog as well...More posts to come!
Romans 12:2 says "Do not be conformed to the pattern of this world, but be transformed, by the renewing of your mind...."
I came to a startling realization this morning. More often than not, I conform to the pattern of this world. Ok, so that realization wasn't what startled me. I've been aware of that for a while. I've just never been able to figure out 1. why, and 2. how to practically be transformed by the renewing of my mind. Obviously God has to do the work, but I've got to be making an effort here too, right? No, what took me by surprised was finally realizing the why behind it.
Growing up, I was not one of the "popular" kids. In fact, I was the kid the popular kids picked on. A lot. I'm not really sure why, I just know they enjoyed victimizing me. (I know you're all really surprised by this; "No! It can't be!" you gasp) I think that as a result of this, I started trying to be the person that I thought they wanted me to be. If only I could be the kind of person that they like, they'll stop teasing me. Thus began my desire, even need, to please people. If I could just figure out what this person wants to hear, or what they like or don't like, I can conform my thoughts and ideas to mesh with theirs and then we'll live in perfect harmony! Gosh, what a sickly sweet idea, huh?
I have spent so much of my life trying to be somebody else just to please someone when the only One I need to please is God. And He loves me exactly as I am. I am free to be just Tiffany and nobody else. I'm still working on getting these truths communicated from my head to my heart, but I consider it a victory that I recognized the lie to begin with! It is my prayer that I would begin to view myself through the Lord's eyes and that because I am good enough for Him just as I am, then I am good enough for me, just as I am.
Romans 12:2 says "Do not be conformed to the pattern of this world, but be transformed, by the renewing of your mind...."
I came to a startling realization this morning. More often than not, I conform to the pattern of this world. Ok, so that realization wasn't what startled me. I've been aware of that for a while. I've just never been able to figure out 1. why, and 2. how to practically be transformed by the renewing of my mind. Obviously God has to do the work, but I've got to be making an effort here too, right? No, what took me by surprised was finally realizing the why behind it.
Growing up, I was not one of the "popular" kids. In fact, I was the kid the popular kids picked on. A lot. I'm not really sure why, I just know they enjoyed victimizing me. (I know you're all really surprised by this; "No! It can't be!" you gasp) I think that as a result of this, I started trying to be the person that I thought they wanted me to be. If only I could be the kind of person that they like, they'll stop teasing me. Thus began my desire, even need, to please people. If I could just figure out what this person wants to hear, or what they like or don't like, I can conform my thoughts and ideas to mesh with theirs and then we'll live in perfect harmony! Gosh, what a sickly sweet idea, huh?
I have spent so much of my life trying to be somebody else just to please someone when the only One I need to please is God. And He loves me exactly as I am. I am free to be just Tiffany and nobody else. I'm still working on getting these truths communicated from my head to my heart, but I consider it a victory that I recognized the lie to begin with! It is my prayer that I would begin to view myself through the Lord's eyes and that because I am good enough for Him just as I am, then I am good enough for me, just as I am.
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