Waiting

Waiting on God is something I feel like I've been doing a lot of lately. Or maybe it's more waiting for God. Just waiting for something to happen in my life. Waiting for something better to come along on the job front or just waiting for my job to improve. Waiting for a spouse. Waiting for West Town Sunday to see some growth. Waiting to see where my life is going. Honestly, I'm tired of waiting.

I don't need to see the whole path, but right now I can't seem to see much beyond the next week, let alone the next 5 years. I try to cling to God's Word and His promises. I know, intellectually, that He hasn't forgotten me or just left me here, but my head can't seem to communicate that knowledge to my heart.

Wait for the LORD; be courageous and let your heart be strong. Wait for the LORD. 
Psalm 27:13-14

Do you not know? Have you not heard? Yahweh is the everlasting God, the Creator of the whole earth. He never grows faint or weary; there is no limit to His understanding.  He gives strength to the weary and strengthens the powerless. Youths may faint and grow weary, and young men stumble and fall, but those who trust in the LORD will renew their strength; they will soar on wings like eagles;  they will run and not grow weary; they will walk and not faint. 
Isaiah 40:28-31 (HCSB)

I know I need to just trust that God has my best interests at heart. I want to trust that He does. I know that He is good and He is in control, yet I find it incredibly difficult to relinquish that control completely to Him and surrender everything I am and have so that He can have it all. We used to sing this song at Alive way back in the day. Maybe I need to listen to it again:

All For Jesus, Robin Mark

Jesus, all for Jesus
All I am and have, 
and ever hope to be
Jesus, all for Jesus
All I am and have,
and ever hope to be


All of my ambitions, hopes and plans
I surrender these
Into Your hands
All of my ambitions, hopes and plans
I surrender these
Into Your hands


For it's only in Your will 
That I am free
For it's only in Your will
That I am free


Jesus, all for Jesus
All I am and have
And ever hope to be